
Between the stars & unvocal silence, there comes one of the last few vestige thoughts I'll ever have of you..
- Vibe:♪♫ Christina Aguilera : Hurt
When you and I .. 'collide'
- Vibe:♪♫ Howie Day : Collide
Drifted amidst another streamed . interluded . malice manifested dream. I'm sickly paralysed..
To miss him. To lay 'taut . abyss . woken tearful' in solemn darkness insulated beneath the handmade doona & smiling but sadly expressionless pillow renched and suffocating..
Distorted & used.. And that of the things you left behind
In utmost truth, it's you who has no recollection of what it was that made you love me ..
- Urges:.. wasted
It's a verity of the real world. There's no denial that we've all had them. Destined or not.. life's shrewd & meaningless without 'close encounters'. To clarify close encounter? It's the wounded relationships . small crushes . fatal attractions you have/had .. that leaves you jaded, stringy and unself regulated. Some.. more lasting than others, lingering long enough to make you believe in transcendence. It's the fe/male companions that curds butterflies in your stomach everytime you see them.
I'd like to presume that there will ever be three encounters. To (i) The boy I grew up with .. bordered between two hemispheres but intuitively knew I loved . (ii) The charmer who stopped me abruptly at the mall in trivial pursuit & swepted me off my feet. (iii) And the one whom cladestinely keeps his feelings imperforated to let chronicles unfold in due course of serendipity. I dream about you..
- Vibe:♪♫ Mark Sholtez : Dream About You
. Feelings I've felt ever since .
I've flown too high on borrowed wings
Beyond the clouds and where the angels sings
Is this the right place to stay?
No one here.. but me
In wake, he infuses my psyche . Left senile & contused . A quavering soul . A leveraging heartbeat ..
- Vibe:♪♫ Lene Marlin : Flown Away
Of his life .. 2/3rd's seeked pleasure, the rest were of pain
To sanction the loss . To feel grief . To shed tears
A graceful man .. his inner strength & ammunition touched the lives of those he knew ..
A devoted husband
A loving father
A poised grandparent
Footprints of ephemeral memories
My thoughts are with you ..
- Vibe:♪♫ Sarah Mclachlan : Angel

. Imaginary .
Don't say I'm out of touch ..
With this rampant chaos - your reality
I know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge
The nightmare .. I built my own world to escape
- Urges:don't try to fix me .. I'm not
- Vibe:♪♫ Evanescence : Hello
I can't say in sight of this chaos manic, an unnecessary learning curve for all living kind .. that the whirlwind itself's slightly calmed. Because it hasn't. Though gashed tissues . internal bleeding & mangled lesions tangibly harmonizes .. hardening to leave all but now the blurred seamless lines of an immersed serrated scar. The heart pumps again .. mildly.
- Vibe:♪♫ Wendy Matthews : The Day You Went Away
